I read this somewhere and it really helped me so I want to share it with everyone
"When a calamity befalls a believer he begins making dua constantly, but he may not see any sign of response for some time. when he is close to despair Allah the Almighty looks into his heart to see if he is pleased and content with the decree and not hopeless or discouraged. If this is his situation then the response comes quickly. this contentment and pleasure in Allah's decree is what reforms and fixed the iman as well as destroys syaitan. That moment when the believer is close to despair is when the real men/women are determined. So, be aware of why the response is delayed. Understand that he is the Master and that He is the Most Wise in Planning, the Most Knowing of what will lead to the reformation of His slaves. Know that He wants to put you through trials to test what you hide in your heart and that he wants to see your Humility and that He wants to reward you for your patience. Thus, when the trial begins. The supplications are lengthened and the one in hardship shows his need and takes refuge in Allah. He will be content with everything."
Thank you to whoever you wrote this because before I read this, I failed. It was like I was sitting for an exam but I kept failing because I had no clue how to answer the question. Each time the trial occurred and when things got too much, I started questioning God "why?" and the thing was I knew it was wrong to question "why?" and then I felt guilty for doing so...felt bad about myself and I fell into that downward spiral. However, the amazing thing was that God kept pressing the 'RESET' button and each time I failed, He gave me another chance and then I felt that I was back to square one. After reading the above message, I realized that the 'RESET' button that God pressed for me was a blessing, an opportunity for me to sit for the test again, and again, and again until I finally got it right!
I realized that I had to prove myself. I had to go through the trial and actually remain patient, persevere and to accept the test that He put me through. I had to cleanse and purify my heart from the weaknesses hiding in there, and weaknesses I have in abundance. So, I became determined...to prove my worth to God. The trial I went through took its cause and as it progressed, I started looking forward to reach the deepest darkest part in order to prove my worth, to show my patience and acceptance. Alhamdulillah.
Most of us mere mortals will question 'why?' and we may at that deepest darkest point in life even question our faith or say the TABOO WORDS of 'why me God?, why me?"
When someone reaches that pit. Do not judge them. Do not say "Astaghfirullah! you are a bad person!" or accuse them for lack of iman! In truth, I didn't doubt God. I doubted myself. I doubt that I had the strength to go through such test. I doubt that I was able to come out the other side. We just need to keep reminding each other that "Allah does not burden a soul more than one can bear." Remind each other that nothing ever happens in this universe without His permission. We can say to them that "When God put you through the test, He knows that you can handle it. Yes! insyaAllah you are strong enough and that is why the test was given to you." Sometimes the person just needs words of encouragment, a listening ear or perhaps a helping hand.
NB: Thank you for releasing me. I love you. You are beautiful and amazing.
